finding my own voice

maybe this has taken me a long time, but i'm starting to feel more confident about finding my own voice in research. for people that know me, the idea that i haven't been confident or said what i thought in the past might seem a bit strange. i am confident and i do say what i think, but not always as fully as i would like to, and sometimes its just scary.

i think now i'm just getting angry and realising that i have to say exactly what i want to say, in my own words. i seem to have been spending a lot of time in the last few weeks telling people that i don't mean what they think i mean. but to me that's really positive, like it helps to clarify what i think if i know for certain what i don't think/mean/say.

confusing? i don't think so.